the future of what; challenge for civilized society
i dont want to scare you, but we’ve entered the apocalypse. when i write tonight, its to survive; after todays events, who knows what one could find upon awakening tommorrow morning. the paranoia has begun to creep into the hearts of everyone, especially me.
i spent most of it downstairs in the living room with a laptop, a television and a telephone [both mobile and standard]. i refused to let myself carry on with the regular activities - how could i anyway? i awaited any sort of information to come through and when i watched both of the towers - on live national television, collapsing like a set of toddlers blocks - this noise came out of me, one of which ive never heard emerge from myself. i cant even begin to describe it.
i watched the broadcasts, fielded calls from anxious mothers of roommates and my own, determined to set a time for travel [i had to return a car to my parents, a mere 45 minutes outside the city].
i took any backroad that i could, just so that i could avoid the mess of traffic or fear having a road become shut down. somewhere on 206, the sun was setting and i smelled the freshly cut lawns and assorted foliage, and it largely disturbed me. i was only a mere two hours from the crux of the crisis, the place where everything we know and can accept for facts in life is now completely forgotten, and the surroundings were more beautiful than anything.
please be safe and careful, where ever you are.