all the negatives have been destroyed (or why they should be)

there are some nasty habits i need to take care of, mainly, this ability of mine to fall into a panic.

i know i make some of you worry.

im sorry.

it was probably while i stepped out of the room, perhaps to have a drink of water or to use facilities, but someone voted me in to do all of the worrying. im telling you, if i find out who voted me in for that, its 3pm at the bikeracks for them.

so so so. nothing is bad. you can stop dialing the hotlines for me.

its the end of the year, and people claim that this is when we should reflect, review. tis the season to be retro.

i have been thinking about the past year immensely, and i notice that for the first time, im reflecting on the calendar end unlike in the past where i would consider my birthday the beginning and start of a new year. if thats any indication, there’s has been a lot of change in this past year for me. change is great, i welcomed it with open arms, anything to forget a history prior to that.

these changes brought many open ends, which when i try to gaze forward into the future, seem to be as unraveling and flapping loosely as they are right now. its not scary to me at all, and it just sits there.

yeah, its waiting.

This entry was posted on Friday, December 29th, 2000 at 8:10 pm and is filed under general.